our hopes and expectations/black holes and revelations

The first time I saw your face
I was blown away without a trace
I felt so alone on a busy street
when you passed me by
I felt my feet melt away
Melt away

I pray to God I could meet
Someone like the boy I'd just seen
Someone that could stop me dead
Someone that could spin around in my head all day
In my head all day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

That night I saw him again
It was the first time I touched his hand
He made me feel so warm
We talked all night 'til the dawn came our way
Til the dawn came our way

But the timing was all wrong
When I met the one I should've known
Instead I walked away leaving behind my destiny on that day
My destiny on that day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

But I still see his face
In my mind it's the only place
And we will meet again
And I will touch your hand again on that day
Your hand again on that day

Saturday, August 02, 2008

I feel so much better now after one & a half day's worth of wallowing in bed complete with tissues, music from a 25 Saddest Songs List and not talking. A laptop is handy in that you can use it in bed too. My sis kept swinging by and demanding that I not balance it on myself because my ovaries might get fried. But then my having children would require that I find my one and only love and marry him, and it doesn't look like it's happening anytime soon. So yeah, who cares?

Also I had a horrible fever and I felt awfully cold and headachey and delirious for awhile. But then after popping a couple of Febs and Panadols it went away.

I finally hopped onto my feet because I came to my senses after the fever went away. Screw them, I thought. I hate being depressed. My heart beats in a weak, fluttery way and I can like feel my lifespan shortening.

I'm going to the hair salon tomorrow so I'll probably need to figure out by tonight whether I want a fringe. Maybe I'll try to get my mom to let me get waves. That'll be fun fun fun.

Heard a really sad version of Wonderwall. It's a bit sleepy because he sings it so quietly and slow but it's still nice.

Today is gonna be the day

That they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realised what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street

That the fire in your heart is out

I'm sure you've heard it all before

But you never really had a doubt

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead the way are blinding

There are many things that

I would like to say to you

But I don't know how

Because maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me

And afterall

You're my wonderwall

i thought the world of you
6:07 PM